Wednesday, 22 April 2015

I lOvE yOu.. I lOvE yOu

I watch her smiling and waving to all her fans. She has so many fans. Well, she is a celebrity. She has everything a person ever dream of. Fame, money, glory, big name... beauty... me? Well, i'm just a road musician. I sang with my guitar. people don't even know my name. I fall for her ever since i first saw her. Back then i never thought she is this famous. i helped her catching a pickpocket who stole he handbag. Tonight, i come to her show again. Just like othe times, i used all of my money to buy the ticket. I'm willing to sacrifice everything for her. she's my life now. my world. My muse. She's my everything. I love her. So damn much. But, i know, she would never even remember me. A poor, ugly guy who just knows how to play a guitar and sing. I don't even have a good voice. So, here i am. Watching her from down here. While everyone is jumping, cheering her name. I just smile. To see her smiling really makes my day. I see her staring at me. Yeah right. I know she's staring at someone else. Why would she stares at me? She don't even remember me. Well, at least that's what i thought. I hope tonight will last longer. This is the only chance i get to see her. Face to face. I want to hug her. I want to kiss her. I want to say that i love her. But, who am i compare to a very big name like her. I sigh heavily. The show ends at last. I take a walk around the stage. In hope that i can see her one last time. But, nobody's there. The stage is quiet. So, i climb up the stage. Stand in front of the microphone. Oh, how i wish i can sing here. In front of all my fans. Well, at least they exist inside my mind. Haha. So i pick my guitar and begin to play it. Eventhough the microphone isn't working, i can just imagine it works. This is a song i wrote. A song about her. About how she became my whole world. I sing and sing and sing. Until i realize someone's there. In front of the stage. Staring at me. With a bright smile on her face. She claps her hand. She is so beautiful. With that smile. I think i'm melting.
"That was a really good song. Did you write it?" She ask while climbing up the stage's stairs. I just can't hide my feeling. I really want to hug her now and tell her that i really really love her.
"Yeah.. i.. have my.. muse.." i say.
"i guess she must be really beautiful, right? And you really love her.. your music told me everything.." i look at her and smiling without i even notice.
"Yeah.. she's really beautiful.. and i really love her.. with all my life, with all my heart.. sometimes, i really want to hug her, kiss her and tell her that she's mine. I want to keep her for my self and no need to share her with the world. I want to make her mine so that she would never leave me. I want to tell her how much i love her from the day i first met her. I'll give my whole life to her. If she's willing to be mine.." she smile. A single drop of a crystal clear water come out from her beautiful eyes. I walk closer to her and catch her tears with my own hand. i don't really know where does the courage come from. She catches my hand.
"That was so beautiful.." she say.
"You're more beautiful.." even before i realize, she crashs her lip towards mine. Both of her hands embrace me tightly. I was so shock but a second later i close my eyes and kiss her back. I hug her tight. I don't even realize that i had tears in my eyes. Please make this a reality not a dream.
"I've been waiting for you, you know.. ever since our first met, i never forget about you.. i fall for you and i really want to be yours.. " she said. I smile and hug her tight.
"I'm sorry i'm late.. i love you... i love you..."

~the end~

Tuesday, 17 February 2015

~As YoU wIsH~

The weather was good that night. As usual, we stayed by the seashore. I was reading. My favourite book. "first love never dies". From where i sat, i could saw what's everyone was doing. I saw Kyle, jack and Dean were eating at the bench. Maybe the leftovers from our bbq party. I saw Jane and May who were chit-chatting beside the campfire. I could also saw Larry who was sleeping near them. That night was the last night for us to be there. It was our graduation party. Our last meeting after our graduation ceremony last week.  And yet, i still didn't told him anything. Kyle. He stoled my heart. From the first time i saw him. Three years ago. But still, i didn't know if i had to tell him. Maybe, it's best if i stay silent. So, i continued my reading. The part where i left. I really love this story. About how they fought for their love. About how they manage to stay together even after all the obstacles they had been through. It touched my heart. Everytime i read it.
"Hey, Camiey.. what are you reading?" I looked up. It was Kyle. He sat in front of me. He seems so curious. I knew Kyle. He wasn't the type of person who would show any interest in books. I wonder why he was so curious about this book.
"My favourite book, "first love never dies".. why do you ask?" Then, before i realized, everyone was there. In front of me. Even Larry. It was really odd. Everyone seems to show some interest.
"Is it really great? The story?" Asked Jane.
"Yeah, we've seen you read it like ten times already.." said Dean.
"Well, it is.. it touched my heart everytime i read it." I said.
"Can you read it to us?" I was so shocked. Never thought i would hear it from Kyle. I gigled.
"Well, of course. If you guys willing to hear it.." everyone nodded. I smiled and opened my book to the first page. And i started reading. From page to page. I glanced at them once in a while, their face was full of curiosity. On what will happen next.
"Chapter three.." i read.
"As her family busy discussing about her future, Lissa took a glance at her butler, Gary. Well, as time passed by she fell for him over and over again. He is the first boy she ever love. And maybe the last one too. but, she knew her parents. Never even in their dreams, they would let their daughter marry a butler. She love him. So much. Well, he's young, handsome, kind. Who wouldn't fall for such boy. Everytime she asked him for a favour, never once he disobeyed. Every favour she asked will always got an answer; "As you wish, my lady.." she likes it. Everytime he said that, she'll smiled.
"I'm done.." Lissa said. She put down her spoon and got up from the chair. She hated it when her parents talked about her future.
"Then, go to your room and study.." Lissa looked at her mother who was still eating.
"Let's go, Gary.." they walked into her room.
"I'm sick of living like this. Why can't i decide my own future?" Gary smiled. He knew Lissa for almost 2 years. She isn't like any other rich girl he knew. Who liked to show of on what they have. Lissa is just lissa. Her clothes isn't expensive. Altough she is the daughter of the richest family in this country, but still, she always act like a commoner. That's what he likes about her.
"Gary, can you do me a favour?"
"As you wish, my lady.. what is it?" Lissa walked closer and stood in front of him.
"Can you take me away from here?" Gary shocked. It wasn't a simple request. What was she thinking?
"But, my lady.. we can't do that. How about Master Izack and Lady Catherine?"
"You knew them, right.. they never care about what i want and what i don't. You heard them, they wanted me to marry a stranger. I don't want my life to end that way.. please, Gary. You're the only person i can trust.. do you want to watch me suffer for the rest of my life?"
He sighed. She's right. What else can he do for her. He too, didn't want to watch her suffer like this.
"As you wish.." Lissa smiled. " i stopped for a while. It really great if someone treat me like that. Others would hoped for 'i love you' or other romantic phrase. But me, i was hopping for an 'as you wish' from someone i love. That would make me smile for my entire life. Then, i looked at Kyle. He was still there. In front of me. Stared at me with his blue eyes. then i continued reading. I never knew everyone would show this much interest in this book. I smiled. It was the part for Lissa's first kiss.
"They entered the house.
"Where are we?" She asked.
"My house.."
"You live alone?" Gary nodded.
"Where are your family?"
"I don't have one. They died. When i was fourteen." Lissa nodded before she walked upstair.
"Can you live in a place like this?" He asked. Lissa then smiled.
"What? You don't think i can?" He chuckled.
"Who knows.." they entered an empty room. well not that empty. There were books everywhere.
"This is your room.. sorry about the mess. I'll tidy it up now.." gary started to pick up the books on the floor. Lissa smiled and entered the room. Well it's not that bad.
"Watch your steps.." but before he knew it, Lissa fell because of his books. He then caught her before she met the floor. Before they realized, they already in this awkward position. With Gary on top and Lissa underneath. They stared at each other for a while as Gary's face moved closer to hers. Their lips met. Times stopped for a while. It was just a simple kiss. yet, it still made her happy. The kiss just lasted for a few seconds before Gary stood up and looked away.
"I'm.. s.. sorry, my lady.. i'm not supposed to do that.." Lissa could saw his blushing face. It was so red. Like all the blood from his body gathered up there. she gigled.
"You're blushing.." she said.
"And why is that?" Gary's face redden again.
"Umm.. maybe, i should go.. i'll make our dinner.. i'll call you when i'm done.." Gary said before exited the room. Lissa blushed. She touched her lip. Then, she smiled. That maybe just a quick kiss but, it was still wonderful." I exhaled. I glanced at my friends. And i can saw Larry was sleeping. I thought so. But, everyones was still listening. I smiled and continued my reading. From the part of Lissa's first kiss, till the part where they confessed to each other.
"They ran like running for their life. No one. No one could seperated them. No one could stopped them anymore. Their love. Their true love. Not even her parents. The black suit guys were still chasing them from behind. They were her family's bodyguards. Maybe her parents sent them to find her.
"Please stop, my lady.. you can't run forever." Said one of the bodyguard. With her hand in Gary's hand, they were still running. But they stopped as the road met it's end.
"It's a dead end." They watched as the bodyguards came closer and closer to them.
"Stay behind me, my lady.." Lissa scared. She didn't want to go back to her luxury yet suffering life anymore. she wanted to stay beside Gary. Forever.
"Gary, i'm scared. I don't want to go back.. don't let them take me.. please.." gary smiled.
"As you wish.." then, he fought the bodyguards. One by one. But they were still stronger than him. He fell. His body was full of cuts, blood and wounds.
"Gary!!" The bodyguards took Lissa forcefully.
"Let go of me! Gary!!" Gary's hand was pulling one of the bodyguards leg.
"Let go of her!" He said. But the bodyguard kicked him off. Gary stood up. He punched one of the bodyguard at the face.
"I said, let her go!!" He beated them one by one. They all fell on the ground. Unconcious.
"Gary!!" Lissa ran towards the boy. but it was to late as the boy fell on the ground, unconciously." I stopped again and exhaled slowly.
"Wh.. what happen next?" Asked May. I smiled and continued.
"He opened his eyes and looked at the light in front of him.
"Am i dead?" He asked.
"No.. not yet.." that voice. He knew that voice. He then sat up.
"Lissa? Where are we?" Lissa smiled.
"My house.."
"What? We failed?" Lissa shooked her head slowly.
"We did it.. we won.." what did she mean by that? Then, two figures walked slowly into the room. It was master Izack and Lady Catherine.
"Master, my lady.." as Gary wanted to stand properly, Lady Catherine stopped him.
"Don't force youself, Gary. Rest.. you need it.." she said.
"You know who we are, right Gary? We are the richest family in this country. We'll always want the best for our daughter. And i know you're aware with that." Gary nodded slowly.
"We want Lissa to marry someone worthy. Someone.. that will make her happy.." master Izack walked closer to him. He tapped Gary gently on his shoulder.
"I am so sorry, my boy.. i never thought that you're willing to risk your own life for our daughter. I know, you can take a good care of her." Then, they slowly walked out the room. Gary silenced. What is going on?
"W.. what just happen?" He asked. Lissa gigled." I exhaled again. Take a glass of water and drank. Well, it was already the last chapter. I continued.
"It was 6 in the morning. They sat under the tree. Watching up in the air. Waiting for the first light to enter the sky. They waited. Patiently. The dark sky started to turn brighter and brighter. It was so beautiful. The sunrise. Gary huged the girl tightly and never once thought to let go.
"Gary.. can you do me a favour?" She asked.
"What is it, my lady?"
"Be mine forever.. and never think to let me go.." Gary smiled before giving Lissa a sweet kiss on her cheek.
"As you wish.." the end.." i closed the book. Everyone seems happy.
"Woaa.. so sweet.. i love this story.." said Jane.
"Yeah, now i know why you read it so many times.." said Jack. I smiled.
"Woa.. look at the time.. we better get going now.." Everyone stood up and walked towards their rooms. And left me to tidy my things up. Not much, just my book and my swimsuit.
"Hey, do you want me to help?" I looked up. It was Kyle. I thought he already gone, along with Jack, Dean and Larry.
"Naah.. i can do it my self.. you can go.. i'll be alright.." i said. With a huge grin on his face, he said.
"As you wish.." i shocked a little. As i watched him walked towards the resort, i smiled. I think i fall in love.. All over again..

Sorry for the broken english.. i've tried my best..

Wednesday, 7 January 2015

CiNtA sEtItIs EmBuN..

Zaman sekarang ni takut pula rasanya nak bercinta.. iyalah.. macam-macam boleh jadi.. kita ni insan lemah.. senang sangat kena tipu.. lelaki bermulut manis.. itulah yang paling bahaya.. kalau diikutkan marah yang membuak-buak bak lava gunung berapi yang tak sampai sehari nak meletup ni.. nak je rasa pergi bunuh je lelaki-lelaki ni.. tapi, ditahan hati supaya jangan diikutkan sangat perasaan tu.. marah itu datangnya dari syaitan.. nafsu.. dan kita sebagai manusia tak boleh kalah dengan mereka.. sabarlah senjata kita.. sabarlah penguat hati sang pencinta.. cinta.. nak disebut pasal cinta.. cinta boleh menundukkan manusia.. cinta boleh memimpin manusia.. cinta Allah atau cinta nafsu.. kita sendiri yang pilih.. Cinta itu adalah perasaan yang mesti
ada pada tiap-tiap diri manusia.. ia
laksana setitis embun yang turun dari langit.. bersih dan suci.. Cuma
tanahnyalah yang berlain-lainan
menerimanya.. Jika ia jatuh ke tanah yang tandus.. tumbuhlah oleh kerana embun itu kedurjanaan, kedustaan, penipu, langkah serong dan lain-lain perkara yang tercela.. Tetapi jika ia jatuh kepada tanah yang subur,di sana akan tumbuh kesuciaan hati, keikhlasan, setia budi pekerti yang tinggi dan lain-lain perangai yang terpuji.. jadi.. jagalah hati.. hargailah cinta yang Allah beri.. jangan sampai satu hari.. sesal yang memakan diri.. ingatlah adik-adik.. jangan terlalu taksub dengan cinta monyet.. perjalanan kita masih jauh lagi.. rugilah hanya kerana cinta dunia kita ketinggalan tatkala orang lain sudah sampai ke garis penamat.. percintaan itu ibarat perjudian.. bahagia bila menang.. sakit bila kalah..