for the first time in forever

Hai guys!! lame dah tak update blog sis. hahah. walaupun xde orang bace. whateverlah.. yang penting sis bleh bace nnti esok2. last post sis tengok april 2015. fuhh. lame bangat dong. bila sis bace2 balik yang sis post dulu kan rasa nak gelak pun ade. rase nak nangis pun ade. haha. ingat tak dulu ade crite pasal si dia n si gadis? sebenarnya cite tu cite yang berlaku pada diri sis dulu. senang2 je dia pergi tinggalkan sis terkontang-kanting sendirian macam tu. haha. dah takde jodoh nak wat camne kan. dia pun dah bahagia dengan bini dia. sis pun dah move on. Alhamdulillah. sis ambil masa agak lama jugaklah nak move on. dalam 2 tahun jugaklah. gila kau, sayang kot. mestilah susah nak lupa. hahah. dan kehadiran seseorang dalam hidup sis berjaya buat sis lupakan perasaan sis. dia balut luka sis dengan cara yang sangat mengejut. sis kenal dia xsampai 3 bulan dia dah confess. kau gila? xsampai 3 bulan kot. terkezut sis. patutlah boleh dikatakan tiap2 hari dia kol. alasannye nak tanye pasal fyp. siyesly, it was sooo annoying. kadang2 sis biar je kol die tu xberangkat. biar je kat situ. alasan, tido lah makanlah, mandilah.. hahah.. jahatkan sis. malam 4/3/2016.. haaa sis ingat lagi tarikh keramat tu.. haha. die boleh bagi bunga kat sis. weh! seumur hidup sis xpernah kot orang datang tetiba bagi bunga camtu. gile kau xterkejut. dahlah orang tengah gaduh2 nak balik. dengan tak sempat nak pikir papenye. kat rumah tu dia kol sis. katenye nak serius. whaatt?? sis xkenal pun lagi die weh. tetiba nak siyes. what dee.. hahah.. sis xtau nak cakap ape so sis mintaklah masa. die mintak maaf sebab terburu2. die takut xsempat katenye. yelah, kitorang dah nak habis belajar dah mase tu. ehh.. die nak habis. sis belum lagi. yang paling sis terharu bile 2 orang tenuk kesayangan sis ws die soal siasat die n bg nasihat mcam2 kat die. huhu. terharu sis. i love you tenukss. adelah tenuk2 tu.. malaslah sis nak cakap sape. bukan korang kenal pun kann.. hah.. okok.. masuk cite balik. sis terima dia pada tanggal 12/3/2016.. ceewaaah.. haha. semua orang xcaye tau sis nak terima die. sbb smua org tahu sis xde prasaan pape pun kat laki tu. sis pun xtau kenapa sis terima die. dulu bukan main annoyed lagi ngan perangai die. sis orangnye mudah jatuh cinta n susah utk hilangkan rasa cinta tu. huhu. tapi sis sangat2 terharu sebab seumur hidup sis xpernah ade laki yang tegur pasal aurat sis kecuali abang sis. tu pun tak pernah masuk telinga sis. haha. die selalu tegur pasal rambut sis yang terkeluar dari tudung sis. die slalu larang sis pakai satu baju ni. sbb seksi die ckp. tapi sis tak pernah dengar cakap. haha. jahat kan. sampai sekarang sis pakai lagi. tapi belakang die laa.. tapi, sis dah jatuh cinta kat die. tak tahulah ape die buat, sampai sis asyik meroyan je bile die tak contact sis. dulu tak macam tu pun. yelah, die duk jauh. last sis jumpa die 26/6 haritu. lame kan. hmm.. huhu. mane tak meroyannye sis. maybe sbb die tak pernah melenting ngan sis. sabar je bila sis buat perangai sis yang tak betul ni. bila sis mood swing pun, sabar je layan sis. tak pernah tengok die marah lagilaa.. berbeza sangat dengan sipolan tu. Alhamdulillah. doakan sis berjaya dalam relationship kali ni. sis dah penat jaga jodoh orang. sis dah penat dengan heart break. sis dah penat menangis. sis dah penat dengan semua tu. sis nak pikir masa depan je skarang ni. nak keje. nak carik duit. nak beli rumah beli kete. nak byk famili sis gi vacation. n lastly nak kawen. huhu.. insyaAllah. doakan sis okey.. i lapp uuu.. muahciked

I lOvE yOu.. I lOvE yOu

I watch her smiling and waving to all her fans. She has so many fans. Well, she is a celebrity. She has everything a person ever dream of. Fame, money, glory, big name... beauty... me? Well, i'm just a road musician. I sang with my guitar. people don't even know my name. I fall for her ever since i first saw her. Back then i never thought she is this famous. i helped her catching a pickpocket who stole he handbag. Tonight, i come to her show again. Just like othe times, i used all of my money to buy the ticket. I'm willing to sacrifice everything for her. she's my life now. my world. My muse. She's my everything. I love her. So damn much. But, i know, she would never even remember me. A poor, ugly guy who just knows how to play a guitar and sing. I don't even have a good voice. So, here i am. Watching her from down here. While everyone is jumping, cheering her name. I just smile. To see her smiling really makes my day. I see her staring at me. Yeah right. I know she's staring at someone else. Why would she stares at me? She don't even remember me. Well, at least that's what i thought. I hope tonight will last longer. This is the only chance i get to see her. Face to face. I want to hug her. I want to kiss her. I want to say that i love her. But, who am i compare to a very big name like her. I sigh heavily. The show ends at last. I take a walk around the stage. In hope that i can see her one last time. But, nobody's there. The stage is quiet. So, i climb up the stage. Stand in front of the microphone. Oh, how i wish i can sing here. In front of all my fans. Well, at least they exist inside my mind. Haha. So i pick my guitar and begin to play it. Eventhough the microphone isn't working, i can just imagine it works. This is a song i wrote. A song about her. About how she became my whole world. I sing and sing and sing. Until i realize someone's there. In front of the stage. Staring at me. With a bright smile on her face. She claps her hand. She is so beautiful. With that smile. I think i'm melting.
"That was a really good song. Did you write it?" She ask while climbing up the stage's stairs. I just can't hide my feeling. I really want to hug her now and tell her that i really really love her.
"Yeah.. i.. have my.. muse.." i say.
"i guess she must be really beautiful, right? And you really love her.. your music told me everything.." i look at her and smiling without i even notice.
"Yeah.. she's really beautiful.. and i really love her.. with all my life, with all my heart.. sometimes, i really want to hug her, kiss her and tell her that she's mine. I want to keep her for my self and no need to share her with the world. I want to make her mine so that she would never leave me. I want to tell her how much i love her from the day i first met her. I'll give my whole life to her. If she's willing to be mine.." she smile. A single drop of a crystal clear water come out from her beautiful eyes. I walk closer to her and catch her tears with my own hand. i don't really know where does the courage come from. She catches my hand.
"That was so beautiful.." she say.
"You're more beautiful.." even before i realize, she crashs her lip towards mine. Both of her hands embrace me tightly. I was so shock but a second later i close my eyes and kiss her back. I hug her tight. I don't even realize that i had tears in my eyes. Please make this a reality not a dream.
"I've been waiting for you, you know.. ever since our first met, i never forget about you.. i fall for you and i really want to be yours.. " she said. I smile and hug her tight.
"I'm sorry i'm late.. i love you... i love you..."

~the end~

~As YoU wIsH~

The weather was good that night. As usual, we stayed by the seashore. I was reading. My favourite book. "first love never dies". From where i sat, i could saw what's everyone was doing. I saw Kyle, jack and Dean were eating at the bench. Maybe the leftovers from our bbq party. I saw Jane and May who were chit-chatting beside the campfire. I could also saw Larry who was sleeping near them. That night was the last night for us to be there. It was our graduation party. Our last meeting after our graduation ceremony last week.  And yet, i still didn't told him anything. Kyle. He stoled my heart. From the first time i saw him. Three years ago. But still, i didn't know if i had to tell him. Maybe, it's best if i stay silent. So, i continued my reading. The part where i left. I really love this story. About how they fought for their love. About how they manage to stay together even after all the obstacles they had been through. It touched my heart. Everytime i read it.
"Hey, Camiey.. what are you reading?" I looked up. It was Kyle. He sat in front of me. He seems so curious. I knew Kyle. He wasn't the type of person who would show any interest in books. I wonder why he was so curious about this book.
"My favourite book, "first love never dies".. why do you ask?" Then, before i realized, everyone was there. In front of me. Even Larry. It was really odd. Everyone seems to show some interest.
"Is it really great? The story?" Asked Jane.
"Yeah, we've seen you read it like ten times already.." said Dean.
"Well, it is.. it touched my heart everytime i read it." I said.
"Can you read it to us?" I was so shocked. Never thought i would hear it from Kyle. I gigled.
"Well, of course. If you guys willing to hear it.." everyone nodded. I smiled and opened my book to the first page. And i started reading. From page to page. I glanced at them once in a while, their face was full of curiosity. On what will happen next.
"Chapter three.." i read.
"As her family busy discussing about her future, Lissa took a glance at her butler, Gary. Well, as time passed by she fell for him over and over again. He is the first boy she ever love. And maybe the last one too. but, she knew her parents. Never even in their dreams, they would let their daughter marry a butler. She love him. So much. Well, he's young, handsome, kind. Who wouldn't fall for such boy. Everytime she asked him for a favour, never once he disobeyed. Every favour she asked will always got an answer; "As you wish, my lady.." she likes it. Everytime he said that, she'll smiled.
"I'm done.." Lissa said. She put down her spoon and got up from the chair. She hated it when her parents talked about her future.
"Then, go to your room and study.." Lissa looked at her mother who was still eating.
"Let's go, Gary.." they walked into her room.
"I'm sick of living like this. Why can't i decide my own future?" Gary smiled. He knew Lissa for almost 2 years. She isn't like any other rich girl he knew. Who liked to show of on what they have. Lissa is just lissa. Her clothes isn't expensive. Altough she is the daughter of the richest family in this country, but still, she always act like a commoner. That's what he likes about her.
"Gary, can you do me a favour?"
"As you wish, my lady.. what is it?" Lissa walked closer and stood in front of him.
"Can you take me away from here?" Gary shocked. It wasn't a simple request. What was she thinking?
"But, my lady.. we can't do that. How about Master Izack and Lady Catherine?"
"You knew them, right.. they never care about what i want and what i don't. You heard them, they wanted me to marry a stranger. I don't want my life to end that way.. please, Gary. You're the only person i can trust.. do you want to watch me suffer for the rest of my life?"
He sighed. She's right. What else can he do for her. He too, didn't want to watch her suffer like this.
"As you wish.." Lissa smiled. " i stopped for a while. It really great if someone treat me like that. Others would hoped for 'i love you' or other romantic phrase. But me, i was hopping for an 'as you wish' from someone i love. That would make me smile for my entire life. Then, i looked at Kyle. He was still there. In front of me. Stared at me with his blue eyes. then i continued reading. I never knew everyone would show this much interest in this book. I smiled. It was the part for Lissa's first kiss.
"They entered the house.
"Where are we?" She asked.
"My house.."
"You live alone?" Gary nodded.
"Where are your family?"
"I don't have one. They died. When i was fourteen." Lissa nodded before she walked upstair.
"Can you live in a place like this?" He asked. Lissa then smiled.
"What? You don't think i can?" He chuckled.
"Who knows.." they entered an empty room. well not that empty. There were books everywhere.
"This is your room.. sorry about the mess. I'll tidy it up now.." gary started to pick up the books on the floor. Lissa smiled and entered the room. Well it's not that bad.
"Watch your steps.." but before he knew it, Lissa fell because of his books. He then caught her before she met the floor. Before they realized, they already in this awkward position. With Gary on top and Lissa underneath. They stared at each other for a while as Gary's face moved closer to hers. Their lips met. Times stopped for a while. It was just a simple kiss. yet, it still made her happy. The kiss just lasted for a few seconds before Gary stood up and looked away.
"I'm.. s.. sorry, my lady.. i'm not supposed to do that.." Lissa could saw his blushing face. It was so red. Like all the blood from his body gathered up there. she gigled.
"You're blushing.." she said.
"And why is that?" Gary's face redden again.
"Umm.. maybe, i should go.. i'll make our dinner.. i'll call you when i'm done.." Gary said before exited the room. Lissa blushed. She touched her lip. Then, she smiled. That maybe just a quick kiss but, it was still wonderful." I exhaled. I glanced at my friends. And i can saw Larry was sleeping. I thought so. But, everyones was still listening. I smiled and continued my reading. From the part of Lissa's first kiss, till the part where they confessed to each other.
"They ran like running for their life. No one. No one could seperated them. No one could stopped them anymore. Their love. Their true love. Not even her parents. The black suit guys were still chasing them from behind. They were her family's bodyguards. Maybe her parents sent them to find her.
"Please stop, my lady.. you can't run forever." Said one of the bodyguard. With her hand in Gary's hand, they were still running. But they stopped as the road met it's end.
"It's a dead end." They watched as the bodyguards came closer and closer to them.
"Stay behind me, my lady.." Lissa scared. She didn't want to go back to her luxury yet suffering life anymore. she wanted to stay beside Gary. Forever.
"Gary, i'm scared. I don't want to go back.. don't let them take me.. please.." gary smiled.
"As you wish.." then, he fought the bodyguards. One by one. But they were still stronger than him. He fell. His body was full of cuts, blood and wounds.
"Gary!!" The bodyguards took Lissa forcefully.
"Let go of me! Gary!!" Gary's hand was pulling one of the bodyguards leg.
"Let go of her!" He said. But the bodyguard kicked him off. Gary stood up. He punched one of the bodyguard at the face.
"I said, let her go!!" He beated them one by one. They all fell on the ground. Unconcious.
"Gary!!" Lissa ran towards the boy. but it was to late as the boy fell on the ground, unconciously." I stopped again and exhaled slowly.
"Wh.. what happen next?" Asked May. I smiled and continued.
"He opened his eyes and looked at the light in front of him.
"Am i dead?" He asked.
"No.. not yet.." that voice. He knew that voice. He then sat up.
"Lissa? Where are we?" Lissa smiled.
"My house.."
"What? We failed?" Lissa shooked her head slowly.
"We did it.. we won.." what did she mean by that? Then, two figures walked slowly into the room. It was master Izack and Lady Catherine.
"Master, my lady.." as Gary wanted to stand properly, Lady Catherine stopped him.
"Don't force youself, Gary. Rest.. you need it.." she said.
"You know who we are, right Gary? We are the richest family in this country. We'll always want the best for our daughter. And i know you're aware with that." Gary nodded slowly.
"We want Lissa to marry someone worthy. Someone.. that will make her happy.." master Izack walked closer to him. He tapped Gary gently on his shoulder.
"I am so sorry, my boy.. i never thought that you're willing to risk your own life for our daughter. I know, you can take a good care of her." Then, they slowly walked out the room. Gary silenced. What is going on?
"W.. what just happen?" He asked. Lissa gigled." I exhaled again. Take a glass of water and drank. Well, it was already the last chapter. I continued.
"It was 6 in the morning. They sat under the tree. Watching up in the air. Waiting for the first light to enter the sky. They waited. Patiently. The dark sky started to turn brighter and brighter. It was so beautiful. The sunrise. Gary huged the girl tightly and never once thought to let go.
"Gary.. can you do me a favour?" She asked.
"What is it, my lady?"
"Be mine forever.. and never think to let me go.." Gary smiled before giving Lissa a sweet kiss on her cheek.
"As you wish.." the end.." i closed the book. Everyone seems happy.
"Woaa.. so sweet.. i love this story.." said Jane.
"Yeah, now i know why you read it so many times.." said Jack. I smiled.
"Woa.. look at the time.. we better get going now.." Everyone stood up and walked towards their rooms. And left me to tidy my things up. Not much, just my book and my swimsuit.
"Hey, do you want me to help?" I looked up. It was Kyle. I thought he already gone, along with Jack, Dean and Larry.
"Naah.. i can do it my self.. you can go.. i'll be alright.." i said. With a huge grin on his face, he said.
"As you wish.." i shocked a little. As i watched him walked towards the resort, i smiled. I think i fall in love.. All over again..

Sorry for the broken english.. i've tried my best..

CiNtA sEtItIs EmBuN..

Zaman sekarang ni takut pula rasanya nak bercinta.. iyalah.. macam-macam boleh jadi.. kita ni insan lemah.. senang sangat kena tipu.. lelaki bermulut manis.. itulah yang paling bahaya.. kalau diikutkan marah yang membuak-buak bak lava gunung berapi yang tak sampai sehari nak meletup ni.. nak je rasa pergi bunuh je lelaki-lelaki ni.. tapi, ditahan hati supaya jangan diikutkan sangat perasaan tu.. marah itu datangnya dari syaitan.. nafsu.. dan kita sebagai manusia tak boleh kalah dengan mereka.. sabarlah senjata kita.. sabarlah penguat hati sang pencinta.. cinta.. nak disebut pasal cinta.. cinta boleh menundukkan manusia.. cinta boleh memimpin manusia.. cinta Allah atau cinta nafsu.. kita sendiri yang pilih.. Cinta itu adalah perasaan yang mesti
ada pada tiap-tiap diri manusia.. ia
laksana setitis embun yang turun dari langit.. bersih dan suci.. Cuma
tanahnyalah yang berlain-lainan
menerimanya.. Jika ia jatuh ke tanah yang tandus.. tumbuhlah oleh kerana embun itu kedurjanaan, kedustaan, penipu, langkah serong dan lain-lain perkara yang tercela.. Tetapi jika ia jatuh kepada tanah yang subur,di sana akan tumbuh kesuciaan hati, keikhlasan, setia budi pekerti yang tinggi dan lain-lain perangai yang terpuji.. jadi.. jagalah hati.. hargailah cinta yang Allah beri.. jangan sampai satu hari.. sesal yang memakan diri.. ingatlah adik-adik.. jangan terlalu taksub dengan cinta monyet.. perjalanan kita masih jauh lagi.. rugilah hanya kerana cinta dunia kita ketinggalan tatkala orang lain sudah sampai ke garis penamat.. percintaan itu ibarat perjudian.. bahagia bila menang.. sakit bila kalah..

LoVe Is....

She watched him walking towards her. Without any talking he sat in front of her. She knew that look. He must be fighting again. With his girlfriend of course. she looked at him. From head to toe. With a white jacket and a blue t-shirt underneath. A black jeans. That outfit must be expensive. Must be his girlfriend bought them for him. With that outfit, he looked like someone different. Very different.
"What happend? Did you fight with kat again, Timmy?" She asked. Timmy exhaled.
"Yeah.." he said with a very low voice.
"and this time also, i don't know what have i done wrong, sam.." sam smiled.
"Well, that's a girl alright.." she said.
"What do you mean by that?"
"Girls.. sometimes we don't know what we want, but we still want them. And sometimes we don't know why we mad but we still did.. that's a girl, silly.." she laughed.
"But still, she can't just mad at me for no reasons.. it's annoying.." he said. Sam looked at him. Again, from head to toe. Then, she laughed. Hard.
"Speaking of reason, what are you wearing?" She laughed again.
"Yeah yeah.. laugh all you want.. she makes me wear this. Do i really look stupid in this?"
"Naah.. in fact you look great.. but, it's just not you.."
"You know sam.. ever since i dated kat, i barely know myself.." Timmy bowed his head.
"Can you help me sam?" Sam smiled and slowly took Timmy's hand.
"Of course, Timmy.. you're my best friend, remember?" Timmy smiled.
"So, you want my advice right?" He noded.
"Then, stop what you're doing.." she said.
"What? Talking to you?"
"No, silly.. stop being someone else, and start being you.."
"What do you mean?"
"You know, Timmy? Love is not just a feeling.. love is when you can be the real you in front of the one you love.. love is accepting others the way they are.. when they asked you to change into someone else just to be with you, that's not love, Timmy.. that's hypocrite.." sam smiled at him. Without knowing, he blushed. Well, she's right alright. Every words she said is true. Suddenly, Timmy held sam into his arms. That was when sam started to blush.
"Thanks, Sam. Somehow, you make me feel better. Now i know what to do.." he then stood up. He tossed away the white expensive jacket. Timmy put on his favourite cap that he kept inside his bag on his head. the expensive leather shoes had changed into his old black and red sneakers. Sam smiled. That's in front of her, was the Timmy she knew.
"Now go and show her the real you.." she said. There he went. Walking away from her.
"That's my boy.." she smiled.

"I wonder how it goes.. i hope he's alright.." The comic book in her hand was no longer interesting. It had been an hour after Timmy left her for his girlfriend. Sam smiled. she's already falls for him since their first met. But she loved their friendship so much, so she kept it silence. She exhaled. Sam wanted Timmy to be happy. Whoever he choosed, she'll supported him with all she had. That's what friends are for, right. Suddenly, a boy sat in front of her. she shocked.
"Timmy? What are you doing here? Isn't you're supposed to be with Kat?" Timmy smiled.
"Well, she left me.." he said with a huge grin.
"Oh, Timmy.. i'm so sorry.. is it because of what i told you to do?"
"Well, it kind of.. i don't know why, but somehow i didn't felt sad nor regreat about it.."
"Really? Why?"
"You're right, Sam.. love is when you can be yourself in front of the one you love.. and fortunately kat is not the one.." he said.
"She freak out when i told her that this is the real me.. but still, i'm happy that i can show her the truth."
"really.. that's good to know.. for your information, i never like her.." she laughed. As well as Timmy.
"I've never realize until now..but i've already found the girl who worth loving for.. and she's been disguising as my best friend all along.." sam shocked. But, who is his best friend? He has another best friend besides me?
"Who is she?" She asked.
"What do you mean by who? I've only have one best friend my whole life.. it's you of course.. sam, it's you.. you're the one who always being there for me.. you're the one who always accept me for who i am.. you're there, sam.. you are always there.." sam blushed.
"Are you saying that..." Timmy noded.
"I.. i love you.. just you.." sam grined before jumps into Timmy's arms.
"Oh, Timmy.. you don't know how long i've been waiting for you to say that.."
"R..really?"
"Yeah.. really really.."
He huged her tight and never thought to let go..

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dengarkan ini satu cerita..
ia bermula di sebuah kota..
terdapat pula sebuah istana..
tinggallah raja dan putera mahkota..

putera mahkota kehilangan ibunda..
hati sedih tidak terkata..
tiada senyum tiada ketawa..
terasa gundah hati si raja..

dengan hati gundah raja perintahkan..
siapa berjaya anugerah diberikan..
senyuman putera harap dikembalikan..
dengan segera raja harapkan..

ramai yang datang ramai yang mencuba..
tapi masih tiada yang berjaya..
tiba si gadis di istana..
dengan hajat dan pertolongan yang ingin diminta..

kali pertama bertentang mata..
hati terpaut tanpa dipinta..
senyuman terukir tanpa sengaja..
raja gembira tidak terkira..

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dengan bimbang dia berkata..
ibunya sakit di dalam desa..
wang tiada rawatan tiada..

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ibunda dirawat dengan sebaiknya..
gadis dikahwinkan dengan si putera..
hiduplah mereka bahagia selamanya..

itulah cinta pandang pertama..
dari mata turun ke jiwa..
cinta di hati ia bertakhta..
lahirnya ia tanpa bicara..

Sekian terima kasih

~MaSa HaDaPaN kItA~

Nina hanya memandang mereka berlari di padang sekolah. Sepatutnya dia juga berada di situ. Berlari merentas angin. laju. Lebih laju dari yang lain. Ya. Tak pernah ada sesiapa dapat menandingi kelajuannya. Dia gembira. Dia suka berlari. Itulah kelebihan dirinya.
"Nina.." sapa seseorang dari belakang.
"Oh, hai Lily.."
"Kenapa berdiri kat situ? Tak pergi berlatih ke?" Soal Lily. Salah seorang rakan Kelas sebelah. Nina tersenyum.
"Aku tengah cuti rehatlah. Cedera pertandingan sebelum ni tak sembuh lagi." Ujarnya sambil mengangkat kaki sebelah kanannya. Dia mengeluh.
"Buat penat je masuk pusingan akhir peringkat kebangsaan.." lily menggosok perlahan bahu Nina.
"Tengah jalani rawatan lagi ke?"
"Ya, jangan risau. Pasti sembuh punya.." Nina tersengih menampakkan barisan giginya. Tiba-tiba sepasang tangan menarik lengannya dari belakang. Dia terdorong ke belakang.
"Eh?" Nina memandang ke belakang. Mencari gerangan yang sesuka hati menarik lengannya itu. Terdapat seorang pelajar lelaki di situ. Merenung ke dalam matanya sebelum berlalu pergi begitu sahaja. Meninggalkan Nina dan Lily yang terpinga-pinga.
"Siapa dia tu?" Soal Lily.
"tu bukan Rayyan ke? Budak kelas aku?" Soal Nina pula.
"Oh, Rayyan.. yang ramai budak perempuan suka kat dia tu kan.. sebab dia cool gitu.." ujar Lily sambil tersengih memandang Rayyan.
"Tapi, kenapa tiba-tiba dia tarik tangan aku? Dia minat kat aku ke?" Soal Nina lagi.
"Tak mungkin. Kau tu cintakan padang je kan.." Nina hanya ketawa mendengar kata-kata Lily.
"Bahaya!!!" Jeritan seseorang dari tingkat atas mematikan ketawa Nina. Sebiji pasu bunga jatuh betul-betul di hadapannya. Nina terpaku di situ.
"Maaf, kau okey tak?" Soal seorang budak lelaki dari tingkat atas.
"Bahayalah! Lagi sikit nak kena dia tau!" Marah Lily.
Nina memegang dadanya yang berdegup kencang itu. 'Kalau Rayyan tak tarik aku tadi dah lama dah aku...' dia tersentak. 'K..kenapa Rayyan tarik aku?' Soal hati kecilnya. Dia memandang Rayyan yang sedang berbual dengan rakannya. 'Dia macam tahu je pasu tu nak jatuh kat situ..'
"Wei Rayyan. Aku dengar kau ada jumpa dengan pelakon.. apa dah nama dia, haa.. Syasya.. betul ke?" Soal Syafiq.
"Betul.."
"Untungla kau. Dia cantikkan? Apa pendapat kau?"
"Aku tak minat isteri oranglah." Balas Rayyan. Syafiq memandang Rayyan pelik.
"Eh, apa pulak? Dia tak kawin lagi la. Dalam tv pun dia ada cakap yang dia tak de boyfriend lagi.." balas Syafiq.
"Oh, ye ke?" Nina hanya memerhatikan perbualan dua lelaki itu.

"Mama, kuatkan sikit tv tu.." ujar Nina sambil menyuapkan sekeping roti ke dalam mulutnya.
"Pelakon cantik, Syasya telah berkahwin secara mengejut semalam. Ramai yang terkejut mendengar pengakuan dari pelakon cantik itu." Secara tidak sengaja roti terlepas dari tangannya.
"Syasya.. dah kawin?" Nina teruja.
"Hebat! Macammana dia tahu??" Soalnya lagi. 'Jangan cakap yang dia.. boleh nampak masa depan?' Ujar hatinya pula.

Dia melangkah kearah pelajar lelaki yang sedang berjalan di koridor sekolah itu. Baju lelaki itu ditarik dari belakang memaksa lelaki itu untuk mematikan langkahnya.
"Kau.. kau boleh nampak masa depan ke?" Soal Nina teruja. Rayyan memandang Nina.
"Apa kau merepek ni Nina?" Soalnya serius.
"Kau boleh nampak masa depan orang lain kan? Aku nak kau tengok aku punya!" Nina sudah tersengih sampai ke telinga.
"Aku tak tahu apa yang kau cakapkan ni.."
"Aku bercita-cita nak jadi atlet olimpik satu hari nanti. Jadi tolonglah tengok masa depan aku!" Cepat sahaja kata-kata Rayyan dicantasnya.
"Maaf.. tapi aku.." belum sempat Rayyan menghabiskan kata-katanya Nina melutut di hadapannya. Orang yang berada disekeliling mereka mula memandang. Ada yang ketawa. Ada yang berbisik-bisik sesama sendiri.
"T..tunggu.. berhenti.. bangun cepat.." Nina akur.
"Memang betul aku boleh nampak masa depan orang lain.. tapi aku tak boleh tunaikan permintaan kau tu.." ujar Rayyan. Kata-kata Rayyan itu agak mengecewakan.
"Dari dulu lagi aku boleh nampak masa depan orang lain. Tapi.. aku tak boleh kawal bila aku boleh tengok. Aku tak boleh nampak masa depan orang yang rapat dengan aku.. contohnya, keluarga aku. AKu juga tak boleh tengok masa depan dalam jangka masa yang panjang. Jadi aku tak boleh nak tunaikan permintaan kau tu." Sambungnya lagi.
"Hebat! Kalau kau boleh buat semua tu, mesti takde masalah.. aku yakin! Kau pasti boleh buat! Jangan risau! Aku akan sokong kau. Sampai Kau  boleh nampak masa depan aku!" Ujar Nina keterujaan.

"Sesiapa yang dapat markah bawah 50, minggu ni kena pergi kelas tambahan.." ujar cikgu Salim. Masing-masing memandang kertas ujian yang telah ditanda. Ramai juga yang mendapat markah bawah 50. Termasuklah Nina dan Rayyan sendiri.
"Rayyan.. nampaknya kita memang ada jodoh. Aku akan tolong kau tengok masa depan aku dalam minggu ni." Ujar Nina. Rayyan menutup mukanya dengan sebiji buku.
"Tapi kan Rayyan. Kalau kau boleh tengok masa depan, patutnya kau bolehlah jawab ujian tu kan?" Sambung Nina lagi. Rayyan menongkat dagunya.
"Sebab tulah aku buat keputusan untuk masuk kelas tambahan. Masa terserempak dengan cikgu hari tu, tiba-tiba je aku nampak jawapan ujian kali ni. Tapi, kalau aku guna jawapan tu, rasa macam menipu pulak." Nina terpegun seketika.
"Tu sebab kau.." ujarnya.
"Kalau aku lah, dah tentu aku gunakan lelebihan tu.. sebab kau Rayyanlah, kau dapat kuasa hebat tu.." Nina tersenyum memandang Rayyan. Kagum pun ada. Rayyan terpaku. Wajahnya serta merta menjadi merah padam. Dia terus mengalihkan pandangannya.
"Mana ada.." ujarnya. 'Dia malu ke?' Soal hati Nina. Nina hanya tergelak kecil. 'Walaupun Rayyan ada kuasa pelik.. tapi, dia tetap lelaki biasa..'
Nina bangkit lalu berjalan perlahan ke arah meja Rayyan.
"Macammana? Nampak masa depan aku tak? Aku dapat jadi atlet profesional tak?" Soalnya.
"Tak nampak.." ujar Rayyan, malas.
"Takpe.. kuatkan semangat! Kau pasti boleh buat!"
"Kenapa kau bersemangat sangat ni?"
Rayyan tersentak sebelum ketawa terbahak-bahak.
"Kau dah kenapa? Ketawa tiba-tiba?" Soal Nina.
"Hahaha.. tak de.. aku nampak.. perut kau bunyi kuat gile lepas kelas ni. Baik kau makan sesuatu sekarang.." Rayyan meneruskan ketawanya.
"Eh? Tak mungkinlah.."

"GRRRRR!!" Kuat sekali bunyi itu. Nina menekan perutnya yang berasa lapar. Merah padam mukanya. Kesemua rakan sekelasnya ketawa terbahak-bahak. Nina memandang Rayyan. Seperti yang disangka. Lelaki itu sedang menahan gelaknya.
"Bekas pensil kau.." bisik Rayyan.
"Bekas pensil?" Nina membuka zip bekas pensilnya lalu mengeluarkan kesemua isinya. Terdapat sebiji gula-gula terselit di dalam bekas itu. Dia memandang Rayyan.
"Makanlah.." ujarnya. Nina tersenyum. Terharu dengan keprihatinan lelaki itu. Dia terfikir sebentar. Rayyan. Mungkin dia dah banyak tengok masa depan orang lain, dan mungkin sebab itu dia juga terseksa.

"Lambat kelas tambahan habis hari ni.." ujar Rayyan sambil memeluk tubuhnya sebelum berjalan keluar dari kawasan sekolah. Hari sudah gelap. Langit tiada bulan mahupun bintang. Angin bertiup agak kuat. Menandakan hujan akan turun malam itu.
"Tulah.. cikgu kejam.." seloroh Nina.
"Sejuknya angin, seronoknya. Aku teringin sangat nak lari pecut sekarang." Sambung Nina lagi sambil memandang langit. Senyuman tidak lekang dari bibirnya.
"Kau ni memang suka sangat berlari kan? Aku terfikir nak masuk bawah selimut je sekarang ni." Ujar Rayyan. Nina tergelak kecil.
"Ya, aku suka sangat. Bila aku berlari, rasa macam angin.. aku suka sangat perasaan tu. Impian aku nak kadi atlet profesional dan berlari kat serata dunia. Jadi sekarang ni aku kena sembuhkan lutut ni dulu." Ujar Nina. Rayyan hanya memandang Nina tanpa reaksi. Dia seakan-akan sedang memikirkan sesuatu. Tangan dihulurkan ke arah Nina.
"Nina, bagi tangan kau.. nanti kau jatuh." Ujarnya. Nina sedikit terkejut.
"Kau cakap macam tu sebab nak pegang tangan aku je kan?" Nina tersenyum mengejek.
"Mana ada.. dahlah.." Rayyan dengan wajah yang merah padam berpaling dan mengatur langkah.
"Haha.. aku gurau je.. maaflah.." ujar Nina tersengih sebelum berlari anak mendapatkan Rayyan. Tanpa disangka kakinya melangkah di atas  air hujan yang bertakung di atas jalan. kakinya tergelincir. Namun, sebelum sempat badannya menyembah jalan, sepasang tangan menyambutnya daripada jatuh.
"Kan aku dah cakap. Tak nak dengar.." ujar Rayyan.
"Hehe.. maaflah.. terima kasih.." Rayyan memandang Nina yang masih di dalam rangkulannya. Wajahnya menjadi hangat sebelum rangkulannya dirungkai. Dia berpaling ke arah lain.
"Dah.. jomlah balik.." ujarnya lalu melangkah pergi.
'Dia malu.. kenapa pula? Kalau Rayyan malu, aku pun rasa malu juga..' ujar hati Nina. Wajahnya juga mula merah.

Nina termenung di beranda berhampiran bilik darjahnya. Dia teringatkan peristiwa semalam. Sesekali terasa wajahnya hangat.
"Nina.." sapaan Cikgu Salim mematikan lamunannya.
"Ada apa cikgu?" Cikgu Salim menyerahkan beberapa helai kertas kepada Nina.
"Ini kertas kerja untuk kelas tambahan kamu. Kamu tolong bagi pada Rayyan sekali ya." Ujar cikgu Salim.
"Baiklah. Terima kasih , cikgu." Dia pun terus mengatur langkah ke koridor. Ingin mencari dimana kelibat Rayyan. Langkahnya dipercepatkan. Dia akhirnya berlari. 'Ah.. dah lama tak berlari.. sebab aku fikir nak sembuhkan lutut dulu. Jadi, dah lama tak berlari.. rasanya tak salah pun lari sikit, kan..' Nina tersengih.
"Seronoknya..." ujarnya. Bagai terkena renjatan elektrik. Sakit di lututnya kembali menyerang. Dia berhenti. Lutunya yang berdenyut-denyut itu dipegang erat.
"Sakit.." ujarnya perlahan. 'Tulah.. siapa suruh kau lari' ngomelnya sendirian sambil tersenyum hiba. Dia memandang keluar jendela. Kelihatan jurulatihnya, Cikgu Aman sedang melatih beberapa orang atlet sekolah.
"Kamu dah berjaya kurangkan masa kamu. Lagi sikit je kamu boleh kalahkan masa Nina.." ujar cikgu Aman kepada Syikin, salah seorang atlet balapan sekolah. Nina memerhatikan wajah gembira Syikin. Dia tertunduk. Melepaskan keluhan kecewa.

"Alaa.. banyaknya kertas kerja!" Ngomel Rayyan. Dia menggaru-garu kepalanya yang tidak gatal.
"Aku rasa dia mesti hidup lama kan?" Seloroh Nina sambil tergelak kecil.
"Dia tu panjang umur.. sebab aku rasa macam pernah tengok dia tua.." ujar Rayyan. Nina tergelak.
"Hahaha.. dah agak dah.." 'eh?' Nina tersentak. 'Kuasa Rayyan tu bukan ke tak boleh tengok masa depan jangka panjang? Kenapa pulak dia boleh nampak cikgu jadi tua? Ke.. kenapa dia tipu aku?' Soal hati kecil Nina. Nina memandang Rayyan. Serius.
"Kau nampak masa depan aku gagal jadi atlet professional ke? Sebab tu ke kau cakap kau tak boleh tengok masa depan aku?" Rayyan tersentak. Dia memandang Nina sebelum melepaskan keluhan perlahan.
"Ya.." ujarnya.
"Sebenarnya, aku boleh nampak masa depan dalam jangka masa yang panjang tapi kejap je. Kau punya pun aku nampak.." jelas Rayyan lagi.
"Masa depan aku.. macammana?" Soal Nina. Rayyan menelan liurnya.
"Kau kawin dengan orang yang aku tak kenal.. ada anak dan jadi ibu macam orang lain.." Nina tersentak mendengar kata-kata Rayyan.
"Masa aku tengok kau bersungguh nak sembuhkan lutut kau tu, aku tak sanggup nak bagitahu. Sebab, aku suka sangat dengar kau bercerita pasal balapan.." jalas Rayyan lagi. Nina bangkit dari kerusi.
"Terima kasih, Rayyan." Dia tersenyum memandang Rayyan.
"Walaupun aku ni macam ni, tapi ada jugak orang nak kawin dengan aku.." dia tersengih. Tetapi Rayyan tahu sengihan itu hanya dibuat-buat.
"Nina.."
"Maaf, aku balik dulu.." Nina terus melangkah pergi. Meninggalkan Rayyan sendirian di situ. Dia berjalan seorang diri. Dengan fikiran yang entah ke mana.
'Macam tu rupanya.. semuanya sia-sia je.. selama ni, aku berlatih bersungguh-sungguh.. masa yang aku gunakan untuk sembuhkan lutut ni.. semuanya sia-sia..' dia mengeluh perlahan.

"Selamat pagi,Rayyan!" Nina menyapa Rayyan dengan senyuman lebar di bibirnya.
"Nina.. erm.. pasal semalam.."
"Jangan risau.. aku akan berusaha jadi isteri yang baik.. jadi, kau boleh berhenti.." ujar Nina sambil tersenyum. Rayyan terdiam. Dia memandang tepat ke arah Nina.
"Jadi, besar tu jelah impian kau rupanya?" Ujarnya setelah agak lama berdiam diri.
"Aku suka sangat dengar kau bercerita pasal balapan.. kau nampak ceria je. Aku ingat kau boleh ubah masa depan kau sebab tulah aku tak nak bagitahu kau perkara sebenar.. maafkan aku sebab tipu kau.." ujarnya lagi. Nina tertunduk. Mengalihkan wajahnya dari Rayyan. Sebelum Rayyan sempat melangkah pergi dari situ, sebelah kasut melayang mengenai kepalanya.
"Aduh!" Kepalanya digosok perlahan. Siapa pula yang baling kasut tadi? Sebaik sahaja berpaling, kelihatan Nina memandangnya dengan mata yang sudah pun berair. Menunggu masa untuk jatuh ke pipi.
"Jangan mintak maaf!" Ujarnya.
"Aku yang patut mintak maaf! Aku dah tahu lutut aku ni takkan sembuh.. kalau sembuh pun, dalam tempoh aku berehat dah tentulah ada orang lagi bagus akan muncul. Walaupun macam tu, aku suka sangat.. lari lagi laju dari orang lain.. lari lebih laju dari orang lain.. aku suka sangat.. bila aku tanya kau dan kau cakap cita-cita aku takkan tercapai... aku sedih..  dan aku salahkan orang lain padahal aku sendiri putus asa.. maaf! Maafkan aku, Rayyan!" Akhirnya air mata tumpah juga. Mengalir tanpa henti. Dibiarkan saja air mata itu. Dengan perlahan Rayyan menarik Nina ke dalam pelukannya. Erat sekali. Seperti tidak mahu melepaskan pelukan itu lagi.
"Agaknya kau akan jumpa tak? Impian baru yang kau usahakan bersungguh-sungguh? Aku yakin.. kau pasti jumpa.." ujar Rayyan. Nina tersenyum. Dalam pelukan Rayyan dia berasa lebih yakin. Lebih tenang. Lebih selamat. Pelukan itu dilepaskan.
"Aku akan cari impian.. yang aku akan usahakan bersungguh-sungguh.." Nina sudah tersengih sampai ke telinga. Rayyan hanya tersenyum. Dia suka melihat Nina gembira. Dia berasa tenang setiap kali melihat senyuman itu.
"Jangan cakap kau dah nampak masa depan aku?" Soal Nina. Rayyan memegang kepalanya. Berasa sedikit berdenyut-denyut.
"Tu... aku rasa masa depan kau dah berubah.. tapi, tiba-tiba aku tak boleh nampak dah.." ujar Rayyan. Nina hanya tersenyum.
"Aku rasa kau mesti nampak jugak nanti. Lagipun, kau pernah cakap kan.. kau tak boleh nampak masa depan kau sendiri dan juga masa depan orang yang ada pertalian dengan kau.. macam saudara-mara atau keluarga.." kata-kata Nina mebuatkan Rayyan tersedar akan sesuatu. 'J.. jangan-jangan..' wajahnya sudah merah padam.

Lima tahun kemudian...
"Aku tak boleh nampak masa depan orang yang rapat dengan aku..." kata-katanya sendiri masih terngiang-ngiang di kepalanya. Dia memandang ke arah semua yang berada di dalam masjid itu. Ustaz Abdul sudah berada di hadapannya. matanya menangkap seorang wanita yang merupakan pengantin perempuannya. Cantik. Bak bidadari.
"Contohnya.. keluarga aku.." Rayyan tersenyum. Mata Nina juga memandang ke arah Rayyan. Kedua-dua mata bertaut. Dengan sekali lafaz, dua hati menjadi satu. Dia bahagia. Nina, pengarang jantungnya.